No News Is Good News?

Here's a little update and a deeper glimpse into my personal life.

I still havent gotten back into the routine of exercising like I should and eating healthily.

A large part of the reason for this is that there is a chance I may be pregnant, and I am waiting on the results of a recent ultrasound that should be given to me tomorrow.

If I am, that would definitely explain my strange inability to not control my hunger anymore. I went from being a PRO at fasting and managing hunger pains to barely being able to go a few hours without feeling Im going to pass out from hunger.

If I'm not, then I'll just suck it up and re-start my mission full force again.

There you have it.

I Will Not Relent!

I have been failing miserably at losing weight since about May of this year. And since this summer, I cant seem to control my eating at all. I used to be able to fast for 4 days at a time to cleanse my body, but now I cant go 4 hours without feeling severely hungry, like Im going to pass out.

I've got to get my act together. I cant fit into my cute new clothes and I have no money to buy new big clothes. Ugghh....and I just dont like what I see in the mirror. I look like a beast.

I need a new way to hold myself accountable and stay motivated....Does anyone have any suggestions? What works for you?

It just that Im so busy and stressed these days, whenever I have any free time, the last thing I want to do is work out....I just sleep. I can never seem to get enough sleep.

*sigh* Im just going to have to suck it up and take the pain!!!

I think I'm going to start posting my weight again and being more forceful with myself. That seems to be the only way I can lose weight.

DAY 1 -- AGAIN!!

Okay, its time to face the music and start over anew.

Confession: I now weigh 290 pounds. I cant believe it. It happened so fast and I had no idea this much damage had been done.

Today is a new day though and Im starting over full blast with my health goals.

I will be eating Lean Cusine dinners for meals and allowing myself light snacks. Im going to start walking to school and back again.

I've decided that hip hop abs is too intense of a workout for me right now, so I will go back to my Leslie Sansone Walk Away the Pounds dvds.

I will track every single think I eat in my Calorie King software and stay under 1300 calories.

Wish me luck.