NEW BEGINNINGS

So after re-gaining all the weight I had lost, I am recommitting myself to reaching a healthy weight and BMI. My weight today is 303 pounds. My goal is 140.

After reading the website of a woman who calls herself "The Impatient Dieter" at http://www.easywayshow.com/, I have decided to do my own version of the diet she used to lose about 70lbs in 2 months. I will have 5 protein/slimfast shakes a day and 2 solid food meals that are to total no more than 300 calories each. I will also do 30 minutes of power walking each morning and 30 minutes in the evening. I will also be taking a daily multivitamin. Daily posts will be made stating my weight that day and how I feel/general stuff that I feel like discussing.

Tomorrow is the official start date since that is the earliest I can go buy the food. See you tomorrow!

No News Is Good News?

Here's a little update and a deeper glimpse into my personal life.

I still havent gotten back into the routine of exercising like I should and eating healthily.

A large part of the reason for this is that there is a chance I may be pregnant, and I am waiting on the results of a recent ultrasound that should be given to me tomorrow.

If I am, that would definitely explain my strange inability to not control my hunger anymore. I went from being a PRO at fasting and managing hunger pains to barely being able to go a few hours without feeling Im going to pass out from hunger.

If I'm not, then I'll just suck it up and re-start my mission full force again.

There you have it.

I Will Not Relent!

I have been failing miserably at losing weight since about May of this year. And since this summer, I cant seem to control my eating at all. I used to be able to fast for 4 days at a time to cleanse my body, but now I cant go 4 hours without feeling severely hungry, like Im going to pass out.

I've got to get my act together. I cant fit into my cute new clothes and I have no money to buy new big clothes. Ugghh....and I just dont like what I see in the mirror. I look like a beast.

I need a new way to hold myself accountable and stay motivated....Does anyone have any suggestions? What works for you?

It just that Im so busy and stressed these days, whenever I have any free time, the last thing I want to do is work out....I just sleep. I can never seem to get enough sleep.

*sigh* Im just going to have to suck it up and take the pain!!!

I think I'm going to start posting my weight again and being more forceful with myself. That seems to be the only way I can lose weight.